honolulu

more or less a tourist trap, it is still really hard not to have a good time at waikiki. although the conference bullshit took up most of the week, and I wasn't really able to sleep more than 3 hours each night because of the jet lag, it was a good trip.

this conference always gives me a weird feeling, maybe the language I am using here is a little strong, but I think it stirs up contempt in me (like that is hard). It is a conflicting emotion, a mixture of I am not getting enough credit for the work I have done, and I am so dumb that I shouldn't be doing this anymore.

after quite a few beers, I was telling janine that I don't think it is cool that people spend so much research grant money and the prime of young people's lives working on research that are so insubstantial, so insignificant, that we will all forget in a year or two. but on the flight home, I realized how foolish that statement was. one, I have not and will probably never produce anything substantial or significant, so who am I to judge. two, these seemingly bogus research projects do serve educational purposes sometimes.

so the assessment was fairly grim for me: I work hard, but no one cares; my work will probably never be any good, because I am not that smart; and I didn't learn that much from the bullshit I have done. the only upside, I did get a little bit of color on my skin from the sun.

Elizabeth Warren

most of us think of the daily show as just jokes and skits,

but the interview I just saw on that show with elizabeth warren (the person who is in charge of the oversight effort of the whole banking bailout bullshit) was as real as any program has done.

she told us what she knows and what she doesn't know, of course that does not inspire confidence, but she told no bullshit. i guess that is all we can ask for, I truly was expecting less. I sincerely wish her the best.

tea party? for real?

okay, this is fucking ridiculous. I see on the news that people are organizing so call 'tea party' on tax day because some dumbass mother fuckers think we are paying too much taxes, or they are even stupider as to be influenced by other people to join something they have no real comprehension.

for real? obama have not raise taxes yet, if and when he does, it will be for the rich fucks; on top of that, it was that dumb fuck from texas who left us with a huge deficit, why didn't they hold these 'tea party' then?

americans are really a lot dumber than I thought.

opening day, and snow ....

when I was in california last week, I was telling friends that winter is almost over.

well, it then dumped snow on me as I was going to work this morning,

on the bright side, it is opening day (phils and braves played last night, but that was the only game), baseball is here, summer can't be that far away, even in fucking canada.